4dp3dt

I'm pretty laissez faire about this whole cycle. I'm not analyzing every tiny symptom I'm feeling and to be honest, I'm not really feeling a damn thing. But I couldn't resist talking about today's actions.

This is a very TMI post, by the way.

The past few days I've been really tired, but I attribute that to the fact that I haven't recovered from the trip to NC. I got a bit of an upset stomach over the weekend so I had taken an Immodium AD. Apparently that one little pill worked too well cause now I'm constipated. So I'm sitting at my desk at work, debating whether I should go to the bathroom to "try" and go, and I start feeling funny in my belly. I think it's gas. But it doesn't feel like gas pains and I don't feel the need to pass gas, it feels different than that. It feels....weird. I sit there for a while trying to figure out this bizarre feeling and suddenly I realize what it is: it's a freakin' muscle spasm in my belly. The only way I connected the two was because my eye had been twitching all day and that's exactly what it felt like, an eye twitch in my uterus. Truly bizarre. Of course I start Googling and read that some women feeling these spasms or "fluttering" during early pregnancy. Way to get my hopes up.

Then I finally go to the bathroom to poo. I'm there for a while, straining of course (I told you this would be TMI), and when I go to wipe, there's one spot of blood. Implantation spotting or the result of my pooping?? I only ever saw blood during my first IVF, at 5dp3dt, and I got a BFP that cycle. Dare I hope that this cycle worked too?? When I went back to the bathroom 15 minutes later to insert my Endometrin, there was no blood to be seen. Then again, that's how it was with IVF #1 too. Just one spot of blood and nothing more.

So I'm talking with my co-worker (a fellow infertile with RPL), and she said constipation is also an early sign of pregnancy. I didn't know that. I was always constipated during my cycles though, mostly because of the drugs they give you for retrieval, so it was never a symptom I could attribute to pregnancy.

So anyway, those are my current note-worthy symptoms. Could they mean something? Sure. Could they mean nothing? Sure. One thing's for certain, this 2WW is nothing like the last one.