Friday, December 28, 2012

One Day More!

Kudos to the person who recognizes the movie reference I made in my post title. Anyway, tomorrow is Baby Girl's due date and she appears to be content staying put. We heard from M' social worker yesterday and she said that M is more than ready to have this baby but she's not in labor yet.  So we wait some more.  In the meantime, there's a post up on the private blog for you to read.  Brandon and I are trying to stay busy but it gets harder by the day.  We've been to the movies and out to eat twice in the past few weeks and you can only go shopping so many times before your wallet protests.  So I think we're going to spend the next few days going crazy at home.  I seriously hope this baby comes soon!

Friday, December 14, 2012

Updates

I suppose I should provide an update of sorts but the truth is that nothing much is happening.  We've got 15 days till Baby Girl's due date and according to our birthmom's last appointment it appears she's content staying put.  Baby Girl is measuring right on target, healthy as a horse.  Nothing out of the ordinary about this pregnancy.

But I've been feeling a little poopie lately.  I've got this dull constant ache near my right ovary that's been going on for almost a month (so no, it's not ovulation).  I'm thinking it could be a cyst from my PCOS flaring up but sometimes the pain moves to the middle or the left of my abdomen so I can't be sure.  It's annoying but not something I think the doctors would do anything about. Right now I'm just playing the wait-and-see approach.

I'm starting to get a little nervous about placement.  There's a 60 day window in which the birthparents could change their mind after placement.  After placement, which would occur at the hospital when Baby Girl is discharged, there will be a hearing scheduled within 30 days to terminate parental rights.  During the 30 day window before the hearing the birth parents can change their mind for any reason whatsoever.  After the hearing they'll then have another 30 days to appeal it though at that point it becomes much harder to regain custody.  They would have to prove they signed under duress or that their situations change dramatically enough to warrant the ability to parent.  Still, I'm putting our full faith in our birthmom's unwavering decision to place Baby Girl for adoption.  I know it will be hard and my heart breaks for her but Brandon and I called the social worker today and let her know that whatever our birthmom needs afterward to help her through this time, we're willing to do it.  If she wants to call or visit or even just email back and forth we're okay with that.  If she wants distance then our feelings won't be hurt and we'll give her the space she needs.  As the days tick closer to Baby Girl's due date I find myself thinking more and more about our birthmom and what she must be going through.  Because despite the happiness that will come from adoption there will also be loss, for all parties involved but mostly for the birth parents.  I can only hope that their hearts will heal and they will be able to achieve the dreams that they're looking forward to accomplishing.


Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Still Here. Still Waiting

Last week we were told it could be "any day now".  But there's no baby yet.  I'm starting to get the feeling that doctors just say that to send you into a tailspin and panic about all the stuff that hasn't been completed around the house.

I'm trying not to worry.  I'm trying not to be impatient when I don't hear anything.  But it's really really hard.

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Private Blog

There's a couple of new posts up on the private blog!

www.fearlesslyinfertile.blogspot.com

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Prayers Please

My dear friend from high school, Lindsay, and her family were in the process of adopting a boy from Eastern Europe.  However on Sunday their beautiful baby boy succumbed to his medical conditions and passed away.  My heart is breaking for her and I cannot imagine the pain she must be going through.  Please stop by her blog and offer some words of encouragement.

 Psalm 34:18- The Lord is close to the broken-hearted and those who are crushed in spirit.