Brandon and I are starting to calm down after our slight freak-out. We took a few days to think things over on our own, as well as discussed the issues together. In the end we decided to go forward with parenthood. It will be a huge sacrifice but we both agreed to always stay focused on our marriage. We're not going to be the kind of couple that goes 6 months without going on a date, or the kind of couple that focuses solely on our child and completely ignores all aspects of our marriage so that when our child grows up we feel like we're married to total strangers.
With that said, we've got our phone conference with our adoption specialist on Wednesday. I've been trying to think of questions to ask her but I can't come up with any. Oh well, I've still got three days.
Next Tuesday is my birthday. My 30th birthday. I wanted to do something pretty special this year so we decided to take a 4-day trip to Orlando and go to the Harry Potter theme park. And because my family lives in Florida and Georgia, and my grandmother's 75th birthday is tomorrow, I called up some family members to see if they wanted to come. It pretty much snowballed from there and now it appears the whole family is coming to my aunt's house. Of course, though it was my idea, somehow the whole thing turned into a birthday party for my grandmother (I even got an invitation, no mention of my own birthday) but that's neither here nor there. So Brandon and I decided to get a hotel room and still try to make it a special and memorable vacation. We're spending the day at SeaWorld Orlando because it's free for military members and their dependents, and we'll get to spend the day there with my sister and nephew. Then it's my grandmother's birthday party that night, and Harry Potter the next day! And a few family members are taking me and Brandon out for an early dinner at the T-Rex restaurant for my birthday celebration. I also plan on doing a Harry Potter-themed giveaway upon my return so keep an eye out for it!
soooo much fun!! i love sea world!! and t- rex is so fun too!! hope you have a great trip! happy birthday!
ReplyDeleteThe decisions that have to be made during this whole RPL/IF process are hard. We've found that making sure our marriage isn't going to suffer is the most important thing to us at this point. We're happy moving forward with adoption and focusing on being happy again.
ReplyDeleteI hope your talk with the specialist goes well! :)
Have fun on your vacay!
ReplyDeleteI just read your last post too (I am slacking on my blog-life here lately). I can say the thoughts you have had, I have had too. I have thought that maybe IF has happened for a reason and I am not supposed to be a mom despite my desire. What if it finally happens (somehow) and I am not happy with it? Then what? What if letting go of that dream brings me more joy than achieving it? But then I hold a baby and I can't imagine not having that joy in my life :)
ReplyDeleteI am excited to hear about your adoption process. We continue to look, slowly, mostly because I can't figure out how to even choose an agency. That is SOOOO much harder than choosing a RE!!!!!
Have a FABULOUS birthday and trip :)
Yay for vacations! We were thinking of doing Disney/Universal this August but I hate the heat. I'm more of a cold weathered person.
ReplyDeleteI do not envy the lines or the heat that you'll experience at the parks but I am super jealous you're going to Universal! I hope to get there on our next trip to Orlando and I can't wait to hear about your HP giveaway! Happy Birthday!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteIF makes it so we doubt ourselves, doubt our motives, doubt our marriages, doubt everything. I'm so glad you came to some positive conclusions, including a trip.
ReplyDeleteThanks for your comment on my blog.